Awhile...

Well, even though my last post said that now I had the net again, it isn't working correctly. Hence the –not posting in awhile– thing. Anyhow, lots of stuff has happened since then. My girlfriend and I set up our new apartment and it is awesome. I have been running a D&D game every other week. I began running an Exalted game. I have a week or so of school left. We got a golden retriever puppy that my girlfriend was allergic to that my parents bought from us. But that is about it. Oh yeah and some of my ex-friends keep Instant messaging my girlfriend. Why don't I tell that story? It keeps plaguing me, so I might as well.

Awhile back I had a group of friends that I used to hang out with. We used to get together every Monday, and play a role-playing game at my apartment. One of them, one day, tells me he is gay and is in love with me. I didn't want to freak him out so I calmly told him that I am not gay. Another friend in the group knew that the first friend was gay and was trying to talk him out of telling me knowing that I was not.

Anyhow, the group of friends ended up shunning him and not inviting this now gay friend because he was always so depressed. They started ridiculing and making fun of him behind his back, and I made the mistake of joining in. I had never handled this kind of thing before, and was being shown by my friends that it was ok to be angry at him for all these things when it was not. I am not making excuses, I made these mistakes and I regret them because he is a good guy, and could have been a really good friend. These are things that I have always told myself I would never do.

Next thing that happens is a new guy, who is a co-worker of the one of the friends in the group, joins us. He seemed like a nice guy at first and has a girlfriend, something no one else, save for me, has. This guy's name is Dan. Dan is the kind of guy who can talk himself out of anything. He will sweet-talk you to get what he wants, and treats everyone around him like they are lower than him. If Dan thinks something, that is the way its going to be or he will get pouty or mad. I don't think Dan ever really liked me, mostly because I wouldn't take his shit, especially in MY apartment. One day we are over at my apartment and my girlfriend is there baking cookies (she wanted to I swear) and she gave me a kiss while we were playing. So Dan says, "Hey! Where's mine?" Now my girlfriend will never back down from a challenge, especially if people thing she won't do it. So she walks over and pecks him on the lips. I didn't mind because Dan's face was crazy. It was pretty funny. Anyhow, later on I find out that Dan's girlfriend, who he told about this, is all pissed at my girlfriend. My girlfriend calls his girlfriend and apologizes about. His girlfriend is still pissed. Then one night we were all eating out, my girlfriend included and when we got up from the table to all buy hats (long story) my girlfriend puts one of my friends phone into his pie, just the antenna, as a joke. When he comes back he is all pissed. Now, I agree that it is a shitty thing to do, but he continues to be pissed at her until they were no longer my friends. His phone still works.

A couple days later, I find I have a voice message. I listen, at first I am laughing at my drunk friend, then I hear other people saying, “Ask Josh why he is going out with his girlfriend?" It was Dan. He denies it, but I could tell his voice and the friend on the phone is says, “That was Dan." Then I hear Dan say in the background, “No, that wasn't me!" Same voice. I realize they are doing to me what they were doing to my gay friend, who they hate at this point and don't invite him to a lot of stuff.

Now I'm pissed. I go to find out, they don't like my girlfriend now. So instead of talking to me about it, they stop inviting me to stuff. That seems to be the way they are handling it. It's the exact thing they did to my gay friend. Now I regret taking part in it because it wasn't about him, they just handle things like that. After a couple of heated conversations, I tell them not to call me anymore and to leave my girlfriend and myself alone.

They leave another voice message with Dan speaking saying it wasn't him and joking around like its some big joke. I'm thinking, “I don't care who it was, someone did it." Either way, I get Instant Messaged by Dan who tells me that I am being a Dick about all this and that they like me, so I shouldn't have a problem. Talking to him is like ramming your head into a wall, he manipulates everything you say, and will readily use it against you. I gave up, and blocked him after he said, “If you don't want to talk why don't you block us?" I didn't want to have to, I didn't know this was highschool. But I gave him his wish. I just wanted to stop talking to them and to never hear from them again.

Next thing that happens is, I'm getting ready to move and the gay friend calls and wants to come pick up something we all bought together and pay for my half. Fine. When he comes over though, he tells me that he heard from all the other people what I did, how I didn't invite him to things and that I was not honest with him. I said to him, “There were some things I was not honest to you about. And I didn't stop them from not inviting you and I did make fun of you. For all of that, I am sorry, but they initiated that all." Apparently, they decided that they should get him on "their" side before I did. So now they are just using him, he hates me, and is their "best friend". And who is heading up all this? Dan. Now, Dan harasses my girlfriend online, he IMs her and then signs off right away. The things he says are terrible. Once he said, “Why don't you come over right now and have sex with me." The other night he said, “I hate you!" and signed off. I just want to be left alone. I don't know what my girlfriend or I did to deserve this. Just when I start to forget, they do something stupid to remind me. I am tired of it. And the only person who I do care about hates me and is being used.

Anyhow, I just wanted to get that off my chest. That was why I had all those depressing times in my last blogs and such.

Until next time.